Drama Queenism

My drama queen tendencies have been well documented in my blogs.  I have always endeavored to have melts downs in the privacy of my home and not subject anyone else to the ensuing messiness.  But recently, it was brought to my attention (by the Holy Spirit) that even that is not healthy for my body and soul.

I’ve been vocal about the triple threat that Brian Rayburn, Keith Moore and Zach Neese have been against some of the issues God has been dealing with me about.  I’ve also said that when you are studying a particular subject, you get plenty of opportunity to practice what you are studying.  I’m here to testify to the truth of that.

I have been listening to Keith Moore’s Thanksgiving Victory series and it has been a kick bootie experience.  He hits self-pity hard and explains how damaging it is; not only to oneself but also to the people around you.  I’ve had how true this is thrown in my face, almost literally. 

Although I would melt down at home, I was still letting self-pity rule my everyday actions.  I, of course, didn’t think I was operating in self-pity but I was.  As a result, I damaged two relationships that were very dear to me.  I’ve repented and apologized where necessary but God will have to bring restoration.

Now, day by day…event by event…sometimes moment by moment I thank God that He has delivered me from self-pity (listen to the series). This is one of those baby step things but I’m going to keep at it until I’m running free.