I recently
read Becoming a Woman of Worth by Kristen Clark. It was a quick informative read and I wrote a review for it on Amazon. Now for a novelist, saying exactly what you want to in 200 words or less is
not an easy thing. I started it several
times and deleted it just as many. This
is what I finally settled on.
I
wish Becoming a Woman of Worth had been available when I was facing
divorce after 18 years of marriage. I
have since come to realize I was in textbook depression with a non-existent
self-worth. While reading the book, I
often nodded my head in agreement with the author.
I have been a
Christian since I was 13. Have I always
followed Jesus as closely as I should? No.
But it never crossed my mind I could become depressed. I’m a Christian.
My turning point came when someone took my picture (I’m usually behind the camera) while I was eating cake at a party. I’ll never forget my reaction when I saw it. I was slumped so far over, my head was level with the table. I looked haggard and so sad.
I took it to the only place I knew to and asked God what was wrong with me. He said, “Barbara, you’re depressed”. Could have knocked me over with a feather. I look back now and realize He had been trying to keep me from plunging into full blown depression but I ignored His promptings (shocking, I know).
I asked Him what to do and this time I paid attention. The first thing He dealt with was the fear in my life. It was (& still is) was one of the hardest things I've ever been through because fear touched every area of my life. It seemed like the Holy Spirit was constantly saying, “Barbara, why are you doing that? Why did you make that decision?”
Have I gotten past it completely? No. Am I better? Ye…s. There are still times I get a tap on the shoulder and a question but they are a lot fewer and farther between.
We are daily working on the self-esteem part and I have some good friends who are helping (nagging?) keep me on track. Part of the proof is this blog. I do have something to say and enjoy saying it (for those who know me, I know you find that hard to believe. Bwa-ha-ha).
Becoming the person you were meant to be is a journey not a destination.
Ready, set, go.
My turning point came when someone took my picture (I’m usually behind the camera) while I was eating cake at a party. I’ll never forget my reaction when I saw it. I was slumped so far over, my head was level with the table. I looked haggard and so sad.
I took it to the only place I knew to and asked God what was wrong with me. He said, “Barbara, you’re depressed”. Could have knocked me over with a feather. I look back now and realize He had been trying to keep me from plunging into full blown depression but I ignored His promptings (shocking, I know).
I asked Him what to do and this time I paid attention. The first thing He dealt with was the fear in my life. It was (& still is) was one of the hardest things I've ever been through because fear touched every area of my life. It seemed like the Holy Spirit was constantly saying, “Barbara, why are you doing that? Why did you make that decision?”
Have I gotten past it completely? No. Am I better? Ye…s. There are still times I get a tap on the shoulder and a question but they are a lot fewer and farther between.
We are daily working on the self-esteem part and I have some good friends who are helping (nagging?) keep me on track. Part of the proof is this blog. I do have something to say and enjoy saying it (for those who know me, I know you find that hard to believe. Bwa-ha-ha).
Becoming the person you were meant to be is a journey not a destination.
Ready, set, go.
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